NOT EVERYTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS

"Because not everything is what it seems, everything is relative and that not everything can be understood, we can only accept it."

WE ARE NOT ALONE

 Accepting a fact whatever it is, is one of the greatest acts of courage that I may face. As I said in other blog entries, the more work the acceptance also work many other facets of my being, everything is interconnected. Often these connections go unnoticed until the time comes and merely you become aware of it.

 But be aware no means understand it or how interpret it. That's where the hard work comes in. 

And whatever it takes I'll finish it!

(The picture belongs to some Acai berries)

THE POWER OF NOW

“Don't look for peace. Don't look for any other state than the one you are in now; otherwise, you will set up inner conflict and unconscious resistance. Forgive yourself for not being at peace. The moment you completely accept your non-peace, your non-peace becomes transmuted into peace. Anything you accept fully will get you there, will take you into peace. This is the miracle of surrender” 

 Eckhart Tolle

AT THE END OF THE CORRIDOR

 I realized that I don’t care how far is the "exit" and really doesn’t bother me, because it is an illusion, what will happen when I get to the door marked exit?, therefore likely that when I open it I’ll glimpse once again, another long corridor and another door at the end. Each door open and crossed, arguably it's a goal I have accomplished in my life. That's why I have to manage my energy and decide which doors I will open, as this would be impossible to open them all.

 I am extremely grateful to have had the opportunity to open the door to acceptance, proud to have been able to achieve this goal.

 Once opened, I can only keep learning, keep moving forward and "accept" what is behind that threshold.

“The doors that remain open for me are a mystery, only time has the answer”

UNDER THE SKIN

"What is truly interesting about each of us, is hidden under the skin, under the shell that we constantly charge, if we had not that shell, we would all be equal."

We live in a planet full of life, nuances and contrasts. We are all different, but we all have something in common, we have come to this world to learn and try to do my best. All decisions we've made throughout our lives, from the most mundane and insignificant to the most difficult, have led us to where we are now.

In my case, for better or worse, all these decisions have led me to realize that I have to work among other things the "acceptance", I have to learn to accept the consequences of those decisions. Acceptance and forgiveness is the only way I can move forward with my life, freeing me from this false "guilt" and the sense of living a life that is not for me.

I strive to live my life as best I can, so I decided to continue my journey and my learning. 

Because, Is not life a continuous decision-making?

RADICAL ACCEPTANCE

“Clearly recognizing what is happening inside us, and regarding what we see with an open, kind and loving heart, is what I call Radical Acceptance. If we are holding back from any part of our experience, if our heart shuts out any part of who we are and what we feel, we are fueling the fears and feelings of separation that sustain the trance of unworthiness. Radical Acceptance directly dismantles the very foundations of this trance.” 

Tara Branch

AS THE MOSSES AND LICHENS...

 As the mosses and lichens are slowly populating what is supposed to be inhospitable places to life, acceptance and understanding are gaining ground in my being.

Cling tightly anywhere, no matter where it is, from a stone, a tree trunk, or even submerged in water, just accept what will become their future "home" and will not stop until is completely covered, filling of life and transforming their environment.

Well, something like that is what is happening to me, acceptance is not only changing me, is also changing all around me. But aside from being a personal perception goes far beyond.

Eventually you see the people around you are changing and act differently, it's like a chain reaction, for each change that happens, there is a consequence and so on to infinity.

These changes might close some doors, but may also be the case that open another door that was closed and bolted.

Who knows?, the point is that I'm looking forward to open all those doors, no matter where they take me.

GET OUT OF THE SPIRAL

Accept and not judge, accept what I have, all that is to come and my past too. My purpose is the global acceptance of "my whole being". To do this I have to get out of this spiral of "unconsciousness" in which I find myself trapped, take off all those layers that weigh me and are not necessary, detach the oxide that corrodes my soul, to see things as they are "really". This sounds really good, but it will be a great sacrifice, sacrifice all of my being unusable, to welcome change.

Every day that passes everything is taking a little more sense and I begin to understand the whole process better, although I have to admit that since I started my inner work, some time ago, have not yet been able to reveal almost nothing about my real me.

But it is true that each passing day, I feel the need to move forward and continue to deepen within me, all this is helping me to create a link between my carnal body and soul.

The changes are very subtle, barely imperceptible, but not least important. Are small fragments of memories, images and forgotten patterns, is like a codified language that I can’t fully understand yet, just get to decipher small fragments that help me to reinforce this bridge, between my body and my soul.

ACCEPTANCE DOESN'T MEAN RESIGNATION

Acceptance doesn't mean resignation; it means understanding that something is what it is and that there's got to be a way through it.

Michael J. Fox

EMERGING TOWARD THE SURFACE

Many times I feel strange, I feel depressed and anxious, as if fallen into a very deep and dark place, a frightening place, where my thoughts are my worst enemies and where the ground seems to be covered with thorns, that dig into my bare feet opening new wounds, making me feel more anxious and confused, preventing me get to the desired “exit”.

It is one of those days when you think everything is a dream and when you least expect, you'll wake up as if nothing had happened. But nothing is further from reality...

I have not yet clear, why some days those feelings haunt me, because I have not really any serious problems (at least at a conscious level), everything seems to work perfectly, the family, the job, but I have the feeling that the "acceptance" has to do something with it.

My inner voice usually give me many clues, but lately I feel disconnected from everything, it is a strange feeling in me, because I am a very friendly person, but now I feel the need to be only in my own "world" and to be left out of everything.

Maybe this is the best way that I have to assimilate all that is happening to me lately, maybe the silence and tranquility are my new teachers, who are trying to show me the way to connect with my inner teacher.

It is very difficult when you have a bad day focus on to find out why you feel that way and that is what is causing this situation. You just give up and pray that this bad time pass as soon as possible. But I have to be strong and learn the lesson to not fall into the same mistake twice.

If I want to accept myself, I have to lose the fear to commit myself and learn to shoulder my responsibilities.

Sorry for the delay!

DAY 9 I LOVE MY BODY (2)

Just as my back is to me more "negative" my chest, my facade, represents my side more determined and positive. Is my other side of the coin, the face where the sun always shines. It allows me to look forward and have a vision rich enough to motivate me every moment of my life. Needless to say that but thanks to my upper body and neck, my head would be off the hook ... It's a part that I have to care more, (I mean my uper body) and spend more time exercising and not neglect my diet.

My head has also suffered his own, suffer from migraines (now much less frequent) and eczema. Actually that's something I have already partly be overcome by having lived with it so long or because they are areas that I don't see often.

I had times of high stress and that is one of the reasons why I have such eczemas, but still being relaxed, the problem persists ... What will be the real reason is this happening?, Is a mystery for now but I'll keep digging.

I love my body and accept it without prejudice.

This is my last post about the acceptance of my physical body (at least for now).

DAY 8 I LOVE MY BODY

It's a great responsibility to my acceptance, moving forward with these small reflections, as I said in other posts, it is very difficult to face my fears, my disagreements and face them. It is a very complex process that probably takes me a long time, so I decided to combine the parts of my body that I have left comment within the whole "body". With a brief description of each of them, for later focus on the emotional and spiritual part, this does not mean that my body is exempt from "spirituality", but I feel the need to focus right now as I said, in my emotional and spiritual part.

PS: Sorry for the delay, I will be putting up soon.

A hug and thank you very much for being there.

DAY 8 I KEEP TRYING

There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout:

This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away!

 Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.

When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad - you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.

Stacey Charter

-I love my body without prejudice-

DAY 7 THE BACK

The back, this great unknown which barely be seen, is my dark side, is the other side of the coin. We give the back to those who we do not like or who they hurt.

It's my harder side my "shell". I try not to use it much, since I realized that it is very easy, to get used to the easy to turn your back on all that apparently overcomes me and run the risk of not trying to face my problems.

My back has suffered greatly, from typical falls to painful contractures, to ignore and not listen when they would tell me, be careful that you're going to hurt!

But there cases where the "pride" makes me act like a fool.

I thank to my back, for letting me be straight and allow my body to hold together in perfect harmony and also for keep me protected.

I apologize to my back, for having punished such a manner and for the damage they may receive in the future.

-I love my back and accept it without prejudice-

DAY 6 THE HANDS

The hands are part of our identity, not only because it can identify through them, but because behind every hand there is a story waiting to be discovered.

Depending on how damaged they are, those hands can tell us if that person has worked hard, in some cases even to figure out what kind of job has or had that person and even can give us clues about the personality of their "owners".

If the eyes are the mirror of the soul, the hands are the "creators" of our world as we know it, were in charge of painting, to hold, to write, to caress and even show us that we can also speak without words.

Thus, agreements such as covenants and future friends, as well as reconciliations or dismissed are sealed with a handshake, but also use them to show empathy and shared accomplishments, even the most effusive and spontaneous celebrate it "bumping those five".

But they also allowed us to defend and protect.

What I can say from my hand?, I think it's one of the few parts of my body that I have not abused, the reason is simple, it is a body part that is always exposed to prying eyes and working facing the public their care and image are essential.

I accept my hands, but I apologize for the damage received and for all that they may receive in the future.

Thank hands, for allowing me to write this text!

What stories hide your hands?

-I love my hands and accept them without prejudice. -

DAY 5 THE LEGS

Today it is the turn of my legs to the gear that impels me every day, tireless workers that keep me upright all the time I need, thanks to them  I can run, jump, crouch, I even play. As might be expected, is another part of my body that I did not care enough, even claiming me some attention. Honestly I ignored them.

There are no more excuses, it's true when they say, "the body is the temple of the soul" and it is time to honor the quote and take care of my body as it should be.

This is not a game and my well being is essential!

My legs need me, only I can take care of them.

Now is the time to love my legs, pay more attention to them, listen to them when they need something. It's time to apologize for the damage taken by all the bumps and falls, for having hurt them, by the scars and for not properly protect them from the sun (here where I live the sun is relentless). That is why I apologize to my legs.

I am beginning to accept them, although this is something very difficult for me, but I'm willing to do. I do not know the reason, there is nothing wrong with them. It's something that I have to go deeper and find out the reason for this resistance.

-beginning to accept my legs-

DAY 4 A TRIBUTE TO MY FEET

Since the moment I stopped crawling and learned to walk, my feet have been commissioned to supporting all my weight. It seems impossible, that they can pass as unnoticed, I only remember them when they hurt, but that is something that will change ...

My feet are the pillars of my body, but they are also responsible for guiding my steps and help me on my way.

They are essential part of my balance!

They keep me in touch with the Earth. If I were a plant, my feet would be the roots.

Thanks to my feet, I can feel the energy emanating from our planet Earth, when I walk barefoot on it.

They also works as a point of escape for all these tensions that we accumulate during the day, at least it works for me for a walk barefoot, if only indoors. It helps me to be better, to be more relaxed.

Beyond their physical appearance, I love my feet and I need them!

I apologize to my feet, for all those times that I abused, using tight shoes, overwhelming them by spending many hours standing and many other things. I apologize for not having been pampered and looked as they deserve, also I apologize for not having become aware that they are a very important part of me.

I accept my feet as they are, accept them without prejudice.

DAY 3 BECOMING AWARE

I still want to further deepen over the acceptance of my physical body, it will take me a while but I'm willing to hire me thoroughly and slowly discovering "my secret".

Since I started this project, I keep mulling over my head, I'm starting to tie all these thoughts going through my mind, that will gradually taking shape, but not easy.

"But there is no turning back once you start this adventure, everything charges a different meaning"

I realize that to accept myself, such acceptance does not come alone, on the contrary, acceptance is a host of other factors.

In my case, feel, love and forgive, play a very important role if I want to accept myself.

To do this, I plan a little exercise, I have to take to follow my path to self healing.

Each new day, I will focus on a different part of my body, I will feel it, forgive it and ultimately accept it. Depending on the perceived sensations (those who also write), it may take more than a day with each of them.

"Now it is time to be aware of my body"

-I love as I am without prejudice-

DAY 2 - BACK TO MY ROOTS

Today is a new day, a new opportunity to continue learning and further deepen my inner world.

On the second day I will start working my acceptance on my physical body, not being complexed of my body and not see me with many defects. Although it seems that I have controlled, there is always some situation that is testing me again and makes me see that I have to be patient and work a little harder on my self esteem, which is intrinsically linked to acceptance.

But why is it so difficult to accept me as I am, what really stops me?

I find it so difficult in part because, I started to forget who I was already, losing my innocence. I'm still keeping my name, my last name, but there's something I have not yet managed to see. I mean my true identity, my essence.

Who am I really, is why I see myself like a stranger and don’t accept what don’t like about my body and so I have to rediscover myself, to finally accept me?

On the other hand I find it difficult to begin to accept me because I am still not 100% aware that I have to change my attitude. I am aware at times, the rest of the day I'm with the autopilot engaged and forget my purpose again.

("When this happens it's as if the emission was cut and my mind is filled with white noise")

I'm sure the change begins on me and it's me that has to change, to have a different attitude towards life, is my attitude that counts, it's me who has to change not the rest of the world.

-I love as I am without prejudice-

DAY 1 A NEW CHALLENGE

The acceptance, it is often very difficult to "accept" forgive the redundancy, more if it is self-acceptance.

   Now is clear that this commitment is something very intimate, is a kind of reconciliation that I have to take with myself and no one has the answers except myself.

 It is not an easy task, but it is very gratifying to see that over time can go heal all those wounds that weaken us and leave us powerless.

But to accept, to really accept and love every cell of my being, first I have to face one of my most basic instincts, “fear”.

  (It is true that the instinct has played an important role throughout our evolution, our specie thanks to him still endures in time.)

But I can not fall into the mistake of letting it rule my life, but does so in such a way that can’t  be recognize.

Even knowing that this change is for good, sometimes there are still times, where fear comes over me and leaves me offside. I still have a lot of work to do, there are many layers that I have to remove to accomplish this purpose and start accepting me in every way.

"I have to get into my head that I must not be afraid of change!

- I love and accept myself without prejudice-"

A brief introduction

I decided to start a small project, it is the first one I take, now I have the tools to carry it out (I have some more time and mental peace.)

The project will be focused on the "acceptance" in the broadest sense of the word.

I'll try to post a photo every 2 days for 2 months initially. I think it's a great way to become aware of what is really important in my life and continue evolving at all levels.

This is something that I really wanted to share with you all, I hope you enjoy this humble project as much as I will!

A hug!