WHEN EVERYTHING AROUND ME SEEMS...

Although everything seems to crumble around me, my pillars remain strong. 

  When everything around me seems sad, keep calm and keep moving forward. 

  When everything around me seems overwhelm me, I will focus on my inner work and I will keep trying. 

  When everything around me seems to make no sense, I will breathe deeply and move on. 

  When finished I understand that everything is an illusion, then I'll be quieter. 

When I dare to accept that I am the one that is changing, then I will live quiet.

Much love to you all.

I DON'T WANT TO MISS THE PRESENT

Yesterday, I went for a walk with my camera in hand, I was in a part of the island which had long not visited, full of hills and small mountains. Not usually rains frequently, so the vegetation is sparse, but the area was pretty green.

After walking a while, I came across this gorgeous plant (Mesembryanthemum crystallinum), when I was taking the picture, I realized that I was actually living in the now, in the present. My mind was quiet, no travel or the past or the future, I was living a magical moment, I really felt alive and connected to the whole, I was living the moment!. It was something I had all but forgotten, it can't be in two places at once. 

So I don't want to miss the present, I want to keep feeling alive!

 I accept the moment as it is.

GAPS AND CRACKS

Sometimes, I feel as if I was that glass and I was breaking inside. Watching helplessly as these gaps grow at full speed, before I could react, as if an invisible finger was pushing down on me, crushing me slowly, unable to do anything about it.

I'm talking about the stress and pressure, is something inevitable, but the difference is that now when they are presented suddenly, they do so with less intensity, and does not make me much harm. 

Now I can avoid those cracks stop growing. Try disconnecting from everything that stresses me, it's really complicated, there are days I can identify what it is that makes me feel anxious and stressed, such as work or family issue, but many times, I feel stressed without no apparent reason, such as when I'm on vacation.

I'm working on it, it's something that costs a lot of effort, I think partly because I judge myself too much, that I question everything and it's easier to see the faults of others than our own faults.

 Is time to accept and seal the cracks...

But I have to remember that, "there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in".

IT'S TIME TO...

It's time to "HELP" instead of forsake.

It's time to "ACCEPT" instead of deny.

It's time to "LOVE" instead of hate.

It's time to "LIVE" not survive.

It's time to to be "HAPPY".

It's time to "FORGIVE".

It's time to be yourself!.

There are many reasons for which to be happy and authentic and so many excuses to abandon us to our ego and our laziness, to lie dormant without illusions, which only depends on you.

What does your heart tell you?

CONSTANTLY BLOOMING

(The picture belongs to the flower of a Lithops spp)

Yesterday after meditating for a few hours, I confirm to myself that, stop trying to control everything that happens in my  life has been the right choice, it has been somewhat liberating, I certainly feel as if I would have taken a huge weight off.

Now I am aware of what I've learned, because as I said in my previous post, "everything is a learning experience" both the good and the bad.

Since now I have the opportunity to change my attitude towards certain issues and implement what I have learned, all this work is also helping me to regain confidence in myself and prove that I can do whatever I set my mind.

Every day new challenges will arise and I will have to face them, some more difficult than others, but all surmountable.

"I accept my condition as an apprentice in this life"

ALL IN DUE TIME

"Accept and don't judge" is a phrase that comes to my head every day, I practice it every day and I feel I slowly costs much less to practice this exercise. It is so difficult to "unlearn" all these patterns that limit us and let us not aspire to be more "complete" beings, at least in my case the judge everything and everyone and always look for a guilty  I have deeply rooted in my life, that often seems to be an impossible mission, get rid of all that garbage that nests in my mind.

Lately, I feel something sensible in every way and problems thought solved resurface again, it is necessary, but the truth thereare is some days when I feel that all this is beyond me, since I started to work more deeply in my inner world, all this has been intensifying more and more, but in a way, is the price I have to pay to heal.

"I hope that eventually, my mind and soul will completely open like a rose, releasing all her perfume until reaching its heyday"

Much love to you all

THE INNER SEED

I need to stop living my life like a spectator and take action, but it's hard when you've been seeing all your life like if was the life of a stranger.To achieve this I have to awaken in a certain way and act directly on the events happening in my life, accept my reality and start work accordingly. It's true when they say that man is a creature of habit, it's so hard to break all these ties, be aware that I'm alive and I am more, than a mere automaton satisfying my ego.

But how I can break the illusion, the mirage, which often leads me to believe that I am living a life that is not for me, that the life I live is obligatory that I have to live?

I know that the answer is within me, that is why I insist so much on cultivating my most spiritual side, that makes my inner wisdom grows and develops slowly, until eventually mature and provides me the fruits of wisdom.

Thank God every day gives me even just a little bit of knowledge that I receive with arms wide open, to continue my journey in search of acceptance.

EVEN THOUGH LIFE SURPRISES US WITH DIFFICULT TIMES

Even though life surprises us with difficult times, when we pass some of those moments don’t allow to be embedded in our minds as if they were hundreds of sharp spikes, this will only would cause in us pain and unnecessary worry. I know it's very difficult, but you must be aware of the situation and prevent the fear and confusion take control of our lives, if we give permission, this would become a total chaos. One way to compensate the situation would give the "problem" the necessary importance and accept what happened.

"If you pass your hand in the same direction as spikes, the less likely you hurt yourself, but if you pass your hand in the opposite direction of the spikes, the damage you do to yourself will be much higher".

 By this I tell you, even letting things happen and take their course, it is likely that during your way you can be hurt, but much less than if you refuse and oppose resistance to everything that happens to you in your life. This would be an unnecessary waste of energy, don’t you think?

It's time to take the upper control!

NOT EVERYTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS

"Because not everything is what it seems, everything is relative and that not everything can be understood, we can only accept it."

THE POWER OF NOW

“Don't look for peace. Don't look for any other state than the one you are in now; otherwise, you will set up inner conflict and unconscious resistance. Forgive yourself for not being at peace. The moment you completely accept your non-peace, your non-peace becomes transmuted into peace. Anything you accept fully will get you there, will take you into peace. This is the miracle of surrender” 

 Eckhart Tolle

GET OUT OF THE SPIRAL

Accept and not judge, accept what I have, all that is to come and my past too. My purpose is the global acceptance of "my whole being". To do this I have to get out of this spiral of "unconsciousness" in which I find myself trapped, take off all those layers that weigh me and are not necessary, detach the oxide that corrodes my soul, to see things as they are "really". This sounds really good, but it will be a great sacrifice, sacrifice all of my being unusable, to welcome change.

Every day that passes everything is taking a little more sense and I begin to understand the whole process better, although I have to admit that since I started my inner work, some time ago, have not yet been able to reveal almost nothing about my real me.

But it is true that each passing day, I feel the need to move forward and continue to deepen within me, all this is helping me to create a link between my carnal body and soul.

The changes are very subtle, barely imperceptible, but not least important. Are small fragments of memories, images and forgotten patterns, is like a codified language that I can’t fully understand yet, just get to decipher small fragments that help me to reinforce this bridge, between my body and my soul.

DAY 9 I LOVE MY BODY (2)

Just as my back is to me more "negative" my chest, my facade, represents my side more determined and positive. Is my other side of the coin, the face where the sun always shines. It allows me to look forward and have a vision rich enough to motivate me every moment of my life. Needless to say that but thanks to my upper body and neck, my head would be off the hook ... It's a part that I have to care more, (I mean my uper body) and spend more time exercising and not neglect my diet.

My head has also suffered his own, suffer from migraines (now much less frequent) and eczema. Actually that's something I have already partly be overcome by having lived with it so long or because they are areas that I don't see often.

I had times of high stress and that is one of the reasons why I have such eczemas, but still being relaxed, the problem persists ... What will be the real reason is this happening?, Is a mystery for now but I'll keep digging.

I love my body and accept it without prejudice.

This is my last post about the acceptance of my physical body (at least for now).

DAY 8 I LOVE MY BODY

It's a great responsibility to my acceptance, moving forward with these small reflections, as I said in other posts, it is very difficult to face my fears, my disagreements and face them. It is a very complex process that probably takes me a long time, so I decided to combine the parts of my body that I have left comment within the whole "body". With a brief description of each of them, for later focus on the emotional and spiritual part, this does not mean that my body is exempt from "spirituality", but I feel the need to focus right now as I said, in my emotional and spiritual part.

PS: Sorry for the delay, I will be putting up soon.

A hug and thank you very much for being there.

DAY 8 I KEEP TRYING

There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout:

This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away!

 Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.

When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad - you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.

Stacey Charter

-I love my body without prejudice-

DAY 7 THE BACK

The back, this great unknown which barely be seen, is my dark side, is the other side of the coin. We give the back to those who we do not like or who they hurt.

It's my harder side my "shell". I try not to use it much, since I realized that it is very easy, to get used to the easy to turn your back on all that apparently overcomes me and run the risk of not trying to face my problems.

My back has suffered greatly, from typical falls to painful contractures, to ignore and not listen when they would tell me, be careful that you're going to hurt!

But there cases where the "pride" makes me act like a fool.

I thank to my back, for letting me be straight and allow my body to hold together in perfect harmony and also for keep me protected.

I apologize to my back, for having punished such a manner and for the damage they may receive in the future.

-I love my back and accept it without prejudice-

DAY 6 THE HANDS

The hands are part of our identity, not only because it can identify through them, but because behind every hand there is a story waiting to be discovered.

Depending on how damaged they are, those hands can tell us if that person has worked hard, in some cases even to figure out what kind of job has or had that person and even can give us clues about the personality of their "owners".

If the eyes are the mirror of the soul, the hands are the "creators" of our world as we know it, were in charge of painting, to hold, to write, to caress and even show us that we can also speak without words.

Thus, agreements such as covenants and future friends, as well as reconciliations or dismissed are sealed with a handshake, but also use them to show empathy and shared accomplishments, even the most effusive and spontaneous celebrate it "bumping those five".

But they also allowed us to defend and protect.

What I can say from my hand?, I think it's one of the few parts of my body that I have not abused, the reason is simple, it is a body part that is always exposed to prying eyes and working facing the public their care and image are essential.

I accept my hands, but I apologize for the damage received and for all that they may receive in the future.

Thank hands, for allowing me to write this text!

What stories hide your hands?

-I love my hands and accept them without prejudice. -

DAY 4 A TRIBUTE TO MY FEET

Since the moment I stopped crawling and learned to walk, my feet have been commissioned to supporting all my weight. It seems impossible, that they can pass as unnoticed, I only remember them when they hurt, but that is something that will change ...

My feet are the pillars of my body, but they are also responsible for guiding my steps and help me on my way.

They are essential part of my balance!

They keep me in touch with the Earth. If I were a plant, my feet would be the roots.

Thanks to my feet, I can feel the energy emanating from our planet Earth, when I walk barefoot on it.

They also works as a point of escape for all these tensions that we accumulate during the day, at least it works for me for a walk barefoot, if only indoors. It helps me to be better, to be more relaxed.

Beyond their physical appearance, I love my feet and I need them!

I apologize to my feet, for all those times that I abused, using tight shoes, overwhelming them by spending many hours standing and many other things. I apologize for not having been pampered and looked as they deserve, also I apologize for not having become aware that they are a very important part of me.

I accept my feet as they are, accept them without prejudice.

DAY 1 A NEW CHALLENGE

The acceptance, it is often very difficult to "accept" forgive the redundancy, more if it is self-acceptance.

   Now is clear that this commitment is something very intimate, is a kind of reconciliation that I have to take with myself and no one has the answers except myself.

 It is not an easy task, but it is very gratifying to see that over time can go heal all those wounds that weaken us and leave us powerless.

But to accept, to really accept and love every cell of my being, first I have to face one of my most basic instincts, “fear”.

  (It is true that the instinct has played an important role throughout our evolution, our specie thanks to him still endures in time.)

But I can not fall into the mistake of letting it rule my life, but does so in such a way that can’t  be recognize.

Even knowing that this change is for good, sometimes there are still times, where fear comes over me and leaves me offside. I still have a lot of work to do, there are many layers that I have to remove to accomplish this purpose and start accepting me in every way.

"I have to get into my head that I must not be afraid of change!

- I love and accept myself without prejudice-"