THE INNER SEED

I need to stop living my life like a spectator and take action, but it's hard when you've been seeing all your life like if was the life of a stranger.To achieve this I have to awaken in a certain way and act directly on the events happening in my life, accept my reality and start work accordingly. It's true when they say that man is a creature of habit, it's so hard to break all these ties, be aware that I'm alive and I am more, than a mere automaton satisfying my ego.

But how I can break the illusion, the mirage, which often leads me to believe that I am living a life that is not for me, that the life I live is obligatory that I have to live?

I know that the answer is within me, that is why I insist so much on cultivating my most spiritual side, that makes my inner wisdom grows and develops slowly, until eventually mature and provides me the fruits of wisdom.

Thank God every day gives me even just a little bit of knowledge that I receive with arms wide open, to continue my journey in search of acceptance.

DAY 2 - BACK TO MY ROOTS

Today is a new day, a new opportunity to continue learning and further deepen my inner world.

On the second day I will start working my acceptance on my physical body, not being complexed of my body and not see me with many defects. Although it seems that I have controlled, there is always some situation that is testing me again and makes me see that I have to be patient and work a little harder on my self esteem, which is intrinsically linked to acceptance.

But why is it so difficult to accept me as I am, what really stops me?

I find it so difficult in part because, I started to forget who I was already, losing my innocence. I'm still keeping my name, my last name, but there's something I have not yet managed to see. I mean my true identity, my essence.

Who am I really, is why I see myself like a stranger and don’t accept what don’t like about my body and so I have to rediscover myself, to finally accept me?

On the other hand I find it difficult to begin to accept me because I am still not 100% aware that I have to change my attitude. I am aware at times, the rest of the day I'm with the autopilot engaged and forget my purpose again.

("When this happens it's as if the emission was cut and my mind is filled with white noise")

I'm sure the change begins on me and it's me that has to change, to have a different attitude towards life, is my attitude that counts, it's me who has to change not the rest of the world.

-I love as I am without prejudice-