AS THE MOSSES AND LICHENS...

 As the mosses and lichens are slowly populating what is supposed to be inhospitable places to life, acceptance and understanding are gaining ground in my being.

Cling tightly anywhere, no matter where it is, from a stone, a tree trunk, or even submerged in water, just accept what will become their future "home" and will not stop until is completely covered, filling of life and transforming their environment.

Well, something like that is what is happening to me, acceptance is not only changing me, is also changing all around me. But aside from being a personal perception goes far beyond.

Eventually you see the people around you are changing and act differently, it's like a chain reaction, for each change that happens, there is a consequence and so on to infinity.

These changes might close some doors, but may also be the case that open another door that was closed and bolted.

Who knows?, the point is that I'm looking forward to open all those doors, no matter where they take me.

GET OUT OF THE SPIRAL

Accept and not judge, accept what I have, all that is to come and my past too. My purpose is the global acceptance of "my whole being". To do this I have to get out of this spiral of "unconsciousness" in which I find myself trapped, take off all those layers that weigh me and are not necessary, detach the oxide that corrodes my soul, to see things as they are "really". This sounds really good, but it will be a great sacrifice, sacrifice all of my being unusable, to welcome change.

Every day that passes everything is taking a little more sense and I begin to understand the whole process better, although I have to admit that since I started my inner work, some time ago, have not yet been able to reveal almost nothing about my real me.

But it is true that each passing day, I feel the need to move forward and continue to deepen within me, all this is helping me to create a link between my carnal body and soul.

The changes are very subtle, barely imperceptible, but not least important. Are small fragments of memories, images and forgotten patterns, is like a codified language that I can’t fully understand yet, just get to decipher small fragments that help me to reinforce this bridge, between my body and my soul.

ACCEPTANCE DOESN'T MEAN RESIGNATION

Acceptance doesn't mean resignation; it means understanding that something is what it is and that there's got to be a way through it.

Michael J. Fox

EMERGING TOWARD THE SURFACE

Many times I feel strange, I feel depressed and anxious, as if fallen into a very deep and dark place, a frightening place, where my thoughts are my worst enemies and where the ground seems to be covered with thorns, that dig into my bare feet opening new wounds, making me feel more anxious and confused, preventing me get to the desired “exit”.

It is one of those days when you think everything is a dream and when you least expect, you'll wake up as if nothing had happened. But nothing is further from reality...

I have not yet clear, why some days those feelings haunt me, because I have not really any serious problems (at least at a conscious level), everything seems to work perfectly, the family, the job, but I have the feeling that the "acceptance" has to do something with it.

My inner voice usually give me many clues, but lately I feel disconnected from everything, it is a strange feeling in me, because I am a very friendly person, but now I feel the need to be only in my own "world" and to be left out of everything.

Maybe this is the best way that I have to assimilate all that is happening to me lately, maybe the silence and tranquility are my new teachers, who are trying to show me the way to connect with my inner teacher.

It is very difficult when you have a bad day focus on to find out why you feel that way and that is what is causing this situation. You just give up and pray that this bad time pass as soon as possible. But I have to be strong and learn the lesson to not fall into the same mistake twice.

If I want to accept myself, I have to lose the fear to commit myself and learn to shoulder my responsibilities.

Sorry for the delay!

DAY 9 I LOVE MY BODY (2)

Just as my back is to me more "negative" my chest, my facade, represents my side more determined and positive. Is my other side of the coin, the face where the sun always shines. It allows me to look forward and have a vision rich enough to motivate me every moment of my life. Needless to say that but thanks to my upper body and neck, my head would be off the hook ... It's a part that I have to care more, (I mean my uper body) and spend more time exercising and not neglect my diet.

My head has also suffered his own, suffer from migraines (now much less frequent) and eczema. Actually that's something I have already partly be overcome by having lived with it so long or because they are areas that I don't see often.

I had times of high stress and that is one of the reasons why I have such eczemas, but still being relaxed, the problem persists ... What will be the real reason is this happening?, Is a mystery for now but I'll keep digging.

I love my body and accept it without prejudice.

This is my last post about the acceptance of my physical body (at least for now).

DAY 8 I LOVE MY BODY

It's a great responsibility to my acceptance, moving forward with these small reflections, as I said in other posts, it is very difficult to face my fears, my disagreements and face them. It is a very complex process that probably takes me a long time, so I decided to combine the parts of my body that I have left comment within the whole "body". With a brief description of each of them, for later focus on the emotional and spiritual part, this does not mean that my body is exempt from "spirituality", but I feel the need to focus right now as I said, in my emotional and spiritual part.

PS: Sorry for the delay, I will be putting up soon.

A hug and thank you very much for being there.