Many times
I feel strange, I feel depressed and anxious, as if fallen into a very deep and
dark place, a frightening place, where my thoughts are my worst enemies and
where the ground seems to be covered with thorns, that dig into my bare feet
opening new wounds, making me feel more anxious and confused, preventing me get
to the desired “exit”.
It is one
of those days when you think everything is a dream and when you least expect,
you'll wake up as if nothing had happened. But nothing is further from reality...
I have not
yet clear, why some days those feelings haunt me, because I have not really any
serious problems (at least at a conscious level), everything seems to work
perfectly, the family, the job, but I have the feeling that the
"acceptance" has to do something with it.
My inner voice
usually give me many clues, but lately I feel disconnected from everything, it
is a strange feeling in me, because I am a very friendly person, but now I feel
the need to be only in my own "world" and to be left out of
everything.
Maybe this
is the best way that I have to assimilate all that is happening to me lately,
maybe the silence and tranquility are my new teachers, who are trying to show
me the way to connect with my inner teacher.
It is very
difficult when you have a bad day focus on to find out why you feel that way
and that is what is causing this situation. You just give up and pray that this
bad time pass as soon as possible. But I have to be strong and learn the lesson
to not fall into the same mistake twice.
If I want
to accept myself, I have to lose the fear to commit myself and learn to
shoulder my responsibilities.
Sorry for the delay!
Creo que esos sentimientos con frecuencia son un sÃntoma que nos obligan a encarar la realidad tal y como es. Sin edulcorarla, ni adornarla, sin reescribirla, ni calificarla... la cruda realidad. Cuando la vemos tal como es -sin ni siquiera el filtro del amor- y la abrazamos, es entonces cuando viene la verdadera aceptación y la inquietud cesa
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